Damn I need a drink

What defines an alcoholic?  No really, I'm asking you, what does it take to be an alcoholic?  Is it when you feel you need to get tipsy whenever you are out at a pub or bar or club?  Is it when you get one evening every two weeks where you have no kids and no work and you just want to let loose?  Is it when sometimes all you want is a one drink after working until 11pm and needing a quick way to chill out and get sleepy (note: kids are at their dad's)?  Is it when you feel the need to have one during almost any adult gathering?  Maybe not if only one or two of these would be the case.   But all the above?  I think the combo might make you "kind of" an alcoholic.  I say that with quotes because I know what hard core alcoholics are about.  I've had family members die over it and come on now, I watch Intervention.  That's crazy shit.  But I think that you definitely have alcohol dependency as well if you don't know when to always stop on any of the above mentioned occasions.  And when that happens, stand the fuck back.  You let out some stuff you've been holding in, some pretty sad or angry things that you have no problem discussing when alcohol takes away your inhibitions.  Things you thought you were over, things you thought you had let go.  But nope, look out person who wronged ya.  It's all coming out now.  Cuz guess what?  It still hurts that you stuck your face in between another chicks boobs and motorboated her in public.  It bothers you that they were IMing a chick they had been with years ago and was trying to set up a secret rendezvous for another roll in the hay which started after she commented on an FB status about how beautiful YOU are to them.  It really upsets you when you come across a 2 year old account that they signed up for to have secret meeting with other women for no-strings-attached sex after just moving in with you and sending out emails to 2 random chicks for a hookup.  Yes, you believe them that no sex with anyone else was actually had, and you may even believe that they don't remember this old account they made (which wasn't active a week after it was created), but OUCH.  That fucking hurts.  And after fighting about these things over the years, and the promise to them that you are over it yet still bringing it up especially after drinking, can cause some tenstion.  And some resentment and do not forget some hurt feelings.  Wow, this can really upset a person just rehashing this crap.  This can drive a person to have a drink so they can get to bed and actually sleep for a bit.  More on this tomorrow.  Maybe.